An Epiphany

I had an epiphany on my way home form work the other day.

I realized that my job is changing me, and this is not

in the making me a better person kind of way.

No, this is in the I am more bitter, sarcastic,

and generally not as happy of a person

as I was a few months ago.

I cannot tell you how sad I was when I realized
this about myself. I have known for a while now that I
am not satisfied and happy with my job, but I resign myself
to be thankful that I have a job in the midst of the
current economy where to many people do not.

After realizing this about myself,

I realize it is time for a change.

Not a change in my job, not yet at least,

but a change in attitude.

I must remind myself how to guard my heart

in the midst of a less than positive atmosphere.

The sad part is, I don't really know

how to go about doing it.

My heart breaks

for the injustice and negative environment

I see all around me.

I truly would like to affect the environment around me

for a positive change, but how do I go about doing this?

I once prayed that my heart would be broken by the things that break the heart of God, and it has happened, it actually happend a long time ago. Now, I how do I protect my heart from these things and the emotions that follow. I feel the pain, now how do I help it change?